tyring to deal...


First full day in The Fort started ok. Spud ( Chad Houston ) is in town for work so thank god i Brought Mary with me. We went up, grabbed Kate and Ken and all the dogs and headed out for some old school hometown trails. We rode upper fisheries loop as the bottom is a mud hole! was a nice loop as good a loop as i remember it. was a lot better after i remembered how to ride that many roots!! dropped off the pooches and kept on going for some uber fast gravel path spin, was nice to burn up the legs and all i could think was this would be awesome on a cross bike!! Up through Birchwood and over to grab some coffee! Was a nice to spend time with people that i used to spend a lot of time with in my past, to turn off the brain and just enjoy the spin. a quick beer and chat and time to head back to the family.

Dad is in pretty good spirits today but you can tell its almost "time". Very fidgety an anxious and trying to get everything settled and ready so mom doesn't have to much to do herself. Its very hard to see, in my eyes, the strongest man Ive ever met, reduced to rolling around in a wheel chair and using a cane as a kickstand so he can move from chair to couch! spent the rest of the day with the family, drinking coffee and telling stories about past events, laughing on the outside but churning on the inside thinking of the days to come! At one point having to go lay down in the basement to try an decompress!

dad goes back in to the H tonight so we got some extra stuff put together for him and to bring to Aaron, who is also living in the H. One big happy family :( !!! Aaron is getting settled, TV and laptop all hooked up for him in a nice big room. i know that he hates it, or the idea that he is there, but it will be the best for him and my mother. got his DVD player working and watched my aunts fuss over him for a bit. decided to go d stairs b4 dad fell asleep, to crack wise and make him smile a lil! its so odd watching how fast he passes out when he lays down now! leaves me quite rattled seeing it. mom is staying with im 24hrs day and she put on a brave face but you can tell her mind and heart is spinning! no amount of anything i go through could make me realize how she is feeling right now!

home to chat and eat and try and get some sleep, which i am sure will not be coming again! got to chat with a certain someone and that made my night and put my mind at ease!! ( glad you like your care package) And thank you for everything you've done for me!

just trying to take everyday as it comes right now and not spend to much time in my head! ill let ya know how that works out:$

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